Motherhood, the hardest job there is. Sharing some mama truth on this current stage of mommyhood.
I feel like somewhere along the way, I stopped sharing my journey of motherhood here on the blog. I used to share sneak peeks of my view into the role of mama far more often than I do now, and I loved that. So here we are, giving you a glimpse into motherhood right now for me.
To be frank with y’all, this stage of motherhood is kicking my ass – pardon my French. Every day there’s a new challenge and every day there are wins and there are certainly failures. There is not one day where I think I’ve got it all figured out. And while I know that’s how life and motherhood work, it just seems so isolating and hard. I don’t feel fully present in my role as a mom but I feel like I can’t give more than I’m already giving. Does that make any sense?
This is such a strange stage to be in. Like, the stunningly beautiful moments are so sweet and full of love and joy I could burst, and the challenging moments are so hard they make me question whether or not I’m a good mother. It’s so bizarre. Bizarre because the sweet and hard moments can happen within a few minutes of each other and I’m left feeling confused as to what my role really means.
I’m certainly not sharing this looking for sympathy, because I know that deep down all mama must feel this way. (If you don’t question yourself on the daily, please don’t tell me, ha!) But I’m telling y’all this because I want, no I NEED, to share this because maybe there’s a mother out there feeling all types of crazy in her current stage in motherhood too.
I’m sorry if this post is a bit of a downer, but that’s just where things are right now. I wish I can close with a positive outlook on my current stage of motherhood but I’d be lying if I did. In lieu of those words, I’ll end this post with some photos of my two crazy humans! Their smiles and their spirits. Those smiles are what encourage me to be better, for them.