Day 6: Turn
As part of the blogtember challenge, today I am supposed to share a distinct time when my life took a turn; immediately I knew what I wanted to write about. FYI – be prepared that this post is a little TMI.
While I am utterly and completely in love with the newest edition to our family, Remy, she wasn’t exactly planned. Early on in our marriage, the fella and I discussed when we wanted to have children and we both agreed that it wouldn’t be until we were in our late 20s, in careers we loved, and in a place in our lives and relationship where we could be completely selfless and dedicate the time and energy to care for a child.
It was a beautiful Monday in mid-November last year when in the middle of the day I received a call from the boy. We talked about what we’d prepare for dinner later that evening and shared how our day was going. Out of the blue Kevin asked me if I had gotten my period for the month and I realized that I hadn’t. My cycle is pretty regular so instantly I knew that I was pregnant but I didn’t vocalize this to the fella without knowing for sure.
The instant I got off of work I sped to my local drug store and purchased a pregnancy test. I got home and ran to our guest bath to take the test. While I was waiting the 2 minutes for the results Kevin came home. We sat there, waiting for what seemed like the longest 2 minutes of my life, and just stared at each other.
I went to the bathroom and without looking at the result walked back in the kitchen where Kevin was waiting. I looked down and just stared in disbelief. It was faint but there were 2 lines staring back at me. Immediately I started crying in panic and asked the boy to read the instructions to confirm the results. I remember squealing some nonsense about inaccurate results, how we weren’t ready, and how we just ruined our lives. I might have been a tad dramatic. After a couple minutes Kevin confirmed that we were in fact pregnant.
The next day after I arrived at work I called my doctor to schedule an appointment for that afternoon. As I drove to my doctor’s office I kept thinking that it was possible that it was a fluke and that at any minute I would get my period. I got to the office, peed in a cup, and waited for my doctor to enter with the results. She walked in with a huge smile on her face and congratulated me, confirming my biggest fear that we were pregnant.
Driving back to work I called Kevin and told him the news, with absolutely no excitement behind my voice. For the remainder of the day, I kept cursing my friend Nicky because I knew for a fact that it was during the weekend of her wedding that we had ‘made’ Remy. Damn wedding, all the romance and love obviously got to me!
Looking back I’m obviously happy that everything turned out the way that it did. I couldn’t be happier or more in love with Remy! I absolutely adore this little girl. She is the culmination of the love between Kevin and me! While my initial reaction to the news of a baby was panic and terror, I think our little family is blessed and full of love.